She holds her cigarette tightly between her tiny fingers. She notices how conscious she is to not let it fall from her hand. She looks around to make sure no one is watching her as she struggles to look like a normal smoker. She inhales the smoke of her cigarette and breathes it out gradually. She smiles out of gladness to not have coughed this time. Little by little, she gains confidence and loosen her hand.
It had been 6 weeks since she had decided to start smoking. Actually she bought her first pack of cigarettes 6 weeks ago but she hadn’t opened it except recently; when she met her friends. She showed it to them on purpose and made it seem like an accident.
"Would u please get me my mobile from my purse….oh yes that’s my cigarettes..Yes I smoke, don’t you know already?" This was her way to tell her friends that she smokes now. As if t was a piece of news that should be circulated and debated. She knew she was going to be judged because whether some may like it or not, female smokers are not very much welcomed in our society. She had practiced this moment tens of times and was eagerly waiting for it. She enjoyed the surprise look on her friends' faces when they knew that she is a smoker now. To her, it wasn’t merely about adding one more habit to her other ones; no this was a "challenge" that she is up to.
At that particular moment she decided to open the pack and to smoke her first "public" cigarette in front of her friends. As she was lighting it, she crossed her fingers that the lighter wouldn’t let her down. Luckily, the cigarette was lit instantly. She smiled a bit and rested her back to the chair while her friends stared at her. She confidently breathed into the cigarette, while pretending to ignore her friends' stares; however, she started coughing heavily and loudly till tears came out of her eyes. Her friends burst out of laughter for some good minutes. Her real tears mixed up with her suffocating ones as she grabbed her bag and left them behind.
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